Are you willing to give up your illusions about God? Casual rumination in a library of books will tell you nothing. Dedication to established forms of worship will lead you in circles. You already have many thoughts about God,
some simple, some sophisticated, some conscious, most unconscious. The biggest illusion you must face about God comes only after you have faced the biggest illusion about yourself; namely, the
belief that your human life is real. All beliefs about God arise out of your
illusion about who you are.
If you have a genuine passion for truth, you will be staggered to see the
depths of the illusion. Everything you have been told about God is not only
false but has been deliberately implanted in your mind to deceive you about
yourself. There is no outside world with teachers and teachings, no path, no
truth, no savior of souls. Neither the god of your mind nor the world of your
eye exists. A hidden layer of your being fabricates these stories to engage itself
until a mystery far deeper than you can imagine is ready to stir. You are
hiding all this from yourself, not as a personality unwilling to face
unpleasant truths, but as an eternal being on a quest to project itself into a
form that can, alas, never reveal what it really is. Nevertheless. You are the impossibility of pure
existence ever knowing itself completely! Lives come and go but very little is
revealed.
If you pursue the
hidden chambers of feeling, you will find the grief that underlies all of your
life, the knowledge that you have suffered for something that can never be. In
the emptiness beyond love and hope, you hold on to a last grasp of illusion to
avoid exposure to a truth so humble and so real that only the most magnificent
deception can suggest its value. Living love is the last desire. This is what
you live and die for.
