The most difficult task of undergoing transformation into a godbeing is to watch the most cherished human values disappear into the fires of pure existence. It is a sacrifice only a godbeing can make, and you cannot resolve the paradox that you as a human being must make it. So, what to do? If your desire for god union is real, then you must accept the conditions of godspace life. There is more inherent satisfaction in living out of godspace than in servicing the illusions of others, even when they suffer. Nothing within the human condition can relieve its own suffering, and personal satisfaction gained by compassionate action belies the real source of pain, which is the existential confusion that defines the human experience. If you are having trouble with this idea, look deeply into your resistance. There is no greater relief (or greater loss) than being free of this confusion.